Writings

Sex and the cities 

(Diary of an Erotic Medium)

A famous Daoist Philosopher Lao Zi wrote that a journey of a thousand miles starts beneath one's feet. On many occasions his words got misinterpreted into "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." In the West we tend to think that progression is reflected in moving forward. We've been conditioned to forget that natural development is actually seen in making one's way in the world in one's full integrity; making steps fully embodied and felt. Many times what this requires of us is taking a step back, moving in- taking time to really realign and re-connect to inner truth by sensing and feeling.

The time of coronavirus has been giving us valuable opportunities for more than a glimpse into our real needs and wants. I'm recognizing that the most valuable things of my life represent and are represented by free-roaming and the courage to walk (along) my way. My kind of life seemed to vanish before my eyes in my attempts to leave England because of Brexit. Six of them failed. Bad timing for moving. Good time for (even more) reflection.

How many times a day do you catch yourself being edgy and defensive?

What is continuously edgy in me are my ideas.

Since I can remember I'm fired up about a topic I am passionate about; Different dimensions of human sexuality.

I'm fascinated by unrequited love. My first was Freddie Mercury. Because of his presence/absence I love to play with vocal overtones and sexual undertones.

I like to penetrate men; to be specific- I like to penetrate a man's brain. Playing with words turns me on. I take full responsibility for them- the words and what they mean to men minus n. On many occasions I'm not even aware that it is a double-edged blade I am walking on.

Before Corona times I used to be great in creating and destroying. Nowadays there is a need for preservation as well. Not my ideas, not the many lessons I've learnt over the years of loving... but my essence; the stories life has been writing through me; 🎶love of my life🎶.


Dear men, this post is not about penises, it's about choices. If I quote Berry Schwartz; "Learning to choose is hard. Learning to choose well is harder. And learning to choose well in a world if unlimited possibilities is harder still, perhaps too hard."
I believe the foreground of too many sexual encounters is based on "taking a...

For a long time owning a home only felt like a major burden to me. More than safety it represented constriction and obligation I wasn't willing to consciously choose for myself. Corona times brought a lot of changes to my life. They took everything I worked for as I spent all of my savings on expensive rents. Corona took...